Recently I celebrated my birthday & I wasn’t really expecting much from the day. Another year older & perhaps another year wiser. I had to work for part of my birthday which doesn’t bother me. I was sitting at the desk when the man I have had a crush on for months walked in. He said hi, handled official business, and then stopped to hold an actually, long conversation with me.
We talked about our lives & what it is like to date now versus when we were growing up. He isn’t looking for a hook up. This is a man I haven’t encountered in a long while. One who appreciates the art of dating. He wants coffee dates where you discuss life and family, he wants to go to dinner & movies. He doesn’t believe in kissing a girl til after a few dates. He wants to actually learn about the person. I didn’t think it was possible to be even more smitten with this man but I was so wrong. I told him it was my birthday & he wished me a happy one. It also gave him a chance to ask how old I was & me to ask him in return – we are in the right age bracket for dating each other. Our conversation was going well & we both had forgotten about work until his phone rang with an emergency call & he had to leave suddenly.
*sigh* I had to go check on a few things and started working again myself. I returned to my area to see a gift on the desk. It was wrapped and decorated. I kind of looked around at my co-workers and asked which one of you did this? Everyone said, wasn’t me. Inside I knew who it was but I just couldn’t believe it. Then I saw the notes & candy. Not only are you a good man. You are creative and thoughtful. I was speechless and all I could do was smile. I sent him a message thanking him for the gift.
Throughout the night I kept thinking of taking the chance and giving him my number along with a sweet message. I typed a message and would just close my screen on my phone. All sorts of things went through my mind: what if I am misreading his signals? What if he isn’t interested? What if he is just being nice? What happens if he says no? After a while I was sitting there looking at the gift, smiling, looked at the message I typed, took a breath, & hit send. And I immediately became nauseous. What the hell did I just do? I am not that girl. I am not that brave. This is not like me to act this way towards a guy I really like. He’s gonna say no & laugh at me. (Yes, I am a drama queen of worse case scenario).
An hour later I received a message & once again I was speechless. He is interested and would love to go out sometime. We exchanged numbers and I am so glad he isn’t standing in front of me because I am smiling so hard and blushing. I was brave for 20 seconds, took a chance & it went better than expected. I am excited to hang out with him and get to know him better. I don’t know if he is kinky & honestly I don’t think I care. But those are discussions we will have down the road. Maybe he will turn out to be a great friend or perhaps so much more. All I know is I have to remember how to officially date & wait. After that, the day just got better and better. If this is any indication of my year, it is going to be one amazing year for sure. Now, I have to go wipe this stupid grin off my face.