*waves* Happy 2022 to everyone. Now, with the pleasantries out of the way, let me say – damn, it’s been a while. Honestly, I haven’t allowed myself the opportunity to sit down & write about the different experiences going on in my world. Let’s see if I catch you up on what’s been happening (& yes I’ll try to write about some experiences later).
Obviously, I been working cause these bills don’t pay themselves. However, I’ve considered a career change away from healthcare cause this shit is wild. Traveled to Hawaii for my birthday – all I can say is breathtaking, beautiful, and surreal. Had a surprise visitor that dropped multiple bomb shells – I wasn’t ready. I’m still not ready. Watched some amazing people push through some challenging times & survived with grace.
Let’s clear the air – I haven’t started writing because it’s a new year’s resolution. Just decided to come back to something I love doing & because Christmas gave me an unexpected gift in more ways than one.
Working the holiday comes with the territory of working healthcare. Unfortunately, my current job stresses me the fuck out – not the work, but management or the lack thereof. Woke up Christmas eve & thought: “Ugh, all I want to do is stay home, watch Christmas movies, & listen to Christmas music.” But adulting responsibilities win cause I’m bougie & enjoy nice things. Got to work & started feeling bad. I thought it was sinuses. I was trying to talk one of the docs downstairs into writing me a Z-pack and steroids. They swabbed me just to be safe. *drumroll*……………I tested Covid positive which results in a 10 day mandatory quarantining (now 5 days, thanks CDC). Thankful that my symptoms were mild, some coughing, sneezing, and nasal congestion. Felt bad for about 4 days & then started feeling exponentially better each day.
Catching Covid definitely wasn’t in the plans & messed up my holiday plans. However, quite a few silver linings have emerged from this unexpected illness.
(1) My mother is safe. I was planning to come home, after working multiple shifts, in order to celebrate the new year with her. Devastated is the only word I can use to describe how I’d felt if I got her sick.
(2) Time to appreciate my apartment/home. I picked my apartment online, drove over on a day off to see the place, & signed the paperwork within a couple of hours. It’s in a safe area, it had many of things I desired. However, sometimes I wish I looked at more places, realized this places lacked ceiling fans when I toured, gotten an additional bedroom, &/or picked a place with modern, upgraded amenities.
But, while laying in bed recovering in the comfort of my home, I looked at my home with a different appreciation. Blessed to be in a place I love – love how I’ve organized & decorated. Appreciative of my comfort creatures. Appreciative of my space. This place provides everything I need. Sometimes, we forget to be thankful for our blessings. It’s important to remember, there are many who are less fortunate that would happily take our place.
(3) Enjoying the morning without a rush. I don’t get the opportunity to enjoy waking up without rushing to work or an appointment. This week, I got to do what I love – getting out of the bed & opened the blinds. I love the natural light coming through my window & sliding doors. Turning on the TV for the morning news. Making a cup of coffee & a light breakfast. Then I get to sit on the couch & look outside the window. Just enjoying the start of the day – no rush, no fuss, just the calmness of the day.
(4) Appreciating my health. I try to honor my body as best I can – even though this bitch don’t love me back like she should (thank PCOS & all the things you bring with it: hair loss, weight gain, insulin resistance, sleep apnea, etc). I digress – my symptoms weren’t nearly as bad as it could have been (thank you vaccine/booster). Also, thank you for advances in medicine to treat & fight this disease.
(5) My tribe. I’m surrounded by some amazing people who shows me love. People I can rely on when I’m not running on all cylinders. People who call or text just to ensure I’m improving & doing well. A great friend who brought me food or medicine so I didn’t have to leave home for anything. Family who video called me daily. I have some good people in my world.
2021 has come to an end & I’m thankful for the adventures, memories, and more. 2022 – we start optimistic. Hopeful for an opportunity to do more of what we love with the people we love. Until the next time.